Bonar Family

My world crashed when pregnancy problems started whilst in France with baby number two. At only 10 weeks I was told there was a blood clot 10cm long, bigger than the baby, within the womb. I was mostly bed bound throughout, from pain and the relentless bleeding. Every time I was in and out of hospital, I was expecting the worst. Life was at an all-time low. It was tough not being at home for my lively two-year-old, and seeing him screaming when he had to leave me on the ward alone. But the joy he got from the kindness of all the ward staff on Level 6 and seeing the Christmas tree everyday made his memory of it all so much easier.

I had to get beyond 23 weeks; it was a long journey. I spent over 3 months as an inpatient on Level 6. It didn’t get any easier, being told time after time that there was a fifty-fifty chance of losing my baby. I had to remain strong or I would go under. I taught myself how to knit on the ward, and was frantically knitting mini booties for my baby who was due to come out at 33 weeks. Someone was looking over me when I was discharged home for Christmas, and even made it into the New Year before being readmitted on January 2nd. The day before my scheduled c section, my waters were leaking with meconium. I then had an emergency c section.

Hearing Raphael’s cry and his warm soft peachy face next to mine was the most magical feeling I would ever experience. He was a fighter from day one. We only stayed three weeks on the SCBU, he didn’t need oxygen and he was even breast feeding.

He was a real fighter. HE kept ME strong, just like my oldest boy kept me strong when I felt low on the ward. I will forever remember the long scary nights where the midwives would hold my hand and be there for me when I felt very alone.

It was a long battle to feel mentally like myself again but I do now, and even feel stronger as a result. But I know without each and every one on Level 6 and MAU, I wouldn’t have made it mentally either, so thank you

Silver Star for being there for me throughout a very difficult and long journey for me and my family. I will be forever grateful and hold you in my heart.